passing by

We've just returned from Birmingham after attending Chris' nana's funeral. She died quite suddenly two weeks ago which was really sad but there was a lovely ceremony today which is only the third funeral I've been to (that I can remember). I think that wakes have such a strange atmosphere to them, like worse than a comedy club. At my grandmother's funeral, I remember being in the limo with my family and from the synagogue to the cemetery, we told jokes the entire time. And then arriving and watching the casket being lowered into the ground, I was balling and couldn't remember anything being funny. And being in Britain, where stiff upper lip is an unwritten rule, it makes for an even stranger environment. Regardless, death is palpable and maybe that's why I'm not that bothered by it- or at least think about it. Besides, conversations about death usually leads to much funnier topics. Take for instance hot dogs (in my mum's case many years ago, I really miss my mum right now too might I add).

And on the train home, I froze my little tootsies off. It was so cold, they're still cold even hours later.

One big decision I've made on my life is to start dressing better. With weight gain comes laziness because you feel that nothing looks good and I've been dressing rather generically, but it's time for some style resurrection, it being lent at all. I'm going to do a major purge in my closet and from now, seriously only going to be clothes I for definite want, not random things like I've been because I feel like I need bits and bobs. And I am on the decline with weight...but still...it's so annoying getting older.

All these parlay into one thing: London Fashion Week next week. Already going to a few shows and trying to squeeze a couple more in through work. I'm really trying to squander as many perks that work offers as possible- not in an illicit way but in a practical way. It's time to take full advantage of everything that's available. Massive consumer media whoring potential. (that said in the nicest, sincerest, evangelical way possible).